Exhausted

Dear Arissa,

Reached home around 8.40pm today after having a monthly meeting at work. You're asleep.. so as usual I started washing breast pump gears to proceed to my stocking up session. So after solat Isyak, I managed to get 5-6oz. Could have gotten more but I had to stop cuz you started crying. Fed you a bit but you still cried, so I changed your diaper.

Dinner - I ate a lot AND so fast that I couldn't enjoy the food, I simply swallowed without chewing cuz you started crying again.

Eventually you fell asleep right after I held/cuddled you. And, pacifier inventors are just GENIUS! Your NUK pacifier really helps a lot in reducing your crying, and easily puts you to sleep. Amazing!

But Mama is really tired to wake up in the middle of the night to feed you. Not to mention your colic sometimes really kept me up all night especially during the confinement. Arissa dear... I miss my 6-7hours sleep. OK I'm not blaming you. I am just sharing it with people(if there are readers la) cuz when you let something out.. especially when you tell those who you are close with about your feelings, you will feel a little relief.

Don't worry dear, I still love you so muchhhhhh Aririii!