iVe signed up this blog account long time ago. And i havent been able to write a nice post about myself. Well, iM just an average person, nothing extraordinary. Everyday i wake up praying for a miracle to happen, but noPe..it has not happened...yet!(still hoping). And i have no particularity about it, just things that are capable of making me smile.
Hmm.. i used to call my life a boring one, but that doesnt mean iM not thankful for what i have. And i think it's typical for me as a girl to say iM greatful and lucky to have been born in a family like mine. Not too big, not too small. Just fine. And i feel so loved by each member of my family. Sometimes, i feel sorry for them to have me in the family, as iM such a black sheep of the family. But miracle does happen without me realising it. They still give me moral support despite of things i did or possessed, asking me to be stronger, encouraging me to have faith in myself,..that sometimes i cry when listening to them telling me "you can do this." They know iM scared of the future. iM too self-conscious, too anxious about small things. They know how depressed i was/am still with what has happened, especially after finding out about my health being in 2004 and 2005. Well, "Que sera sera...whatever will be, will be... The future is not ours to see."
Of course everyone hates exam, perhaps 1% might say they love exams. Well iM within that 99%. i get so palpitated when exam comes, and always have a symptom of blankness when confronting the exam papers, unable to respond favourably. Sigh* What to do..iM not exam-friendly. Last year i had a very bad fever (in which i call external factor: may also affect the symptom) during exam, and i forgot to bring in tissue paper with me, and with every minute i sneezed and sneezed, plus with bad phlegm cough can you imagine how i had to bear with my nose producing loads of mucous. Gross, but what to do..
Weight is one thing i fear of. i really have a problem controlling food, especially when i came here. i used to be a person who doesnt buy chocolate and ice-cream, but now im the opposite. Why?!Why?! WHY?!!! i used to blame it on the weather, but no use. Blaming on the hormones i take also doesnt help. i guess fighting over those temptations for foooood would overcome the problems. Determination is not so friendly, but as all would say, patience will meet us to success. So i pray... determination, be my friend. =)
New semester has just started. TiCk-tOcK!Tick-toCk!! Now, it's already in week 3. And yes, busyness is now trying to be an acquaintance, and i let myself get along with it well, and i find it so beneficial as it replaces my nothing-to-do time. My lectures and seminars are mostly at 9am till 5pm almost everyday! Although there may be gap between them, i still feel exhausted by the end of the day. F.R.I.E.N.D.S is definitely my remedy, till i fall asleep.
On weekends somehow, i always try to squeeze in some interesting and fun activities with friends. Today, i went to watch Final Destination 3 with Jihan. After 10 mins the show started, my hands were on my face till the movie ended, peeping through between my fingers. There's no moral value at all but violence from the movie!!! For those who have not watched Final Destination 3, and intend to watch it, one advice: Don't! DON't WATCH if you don't like Final Destination 1 & 2. Because it's far worse that those two. Watching this movie makes me feel more unrelaxed, as a matter of fact, it even takes away oxygen around me! HELP!
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